Don't you get sad/tired of people asking you about your past? ; ^ ; if you do, you should tell people to fuck off. It would bother me to have to always talk about the negative experiences of my life.
i’m not bothered by it at all, and im not ashamed about it either. seriously. a lot of people who ask about my heroin use are people who are people who are starting to use or are trying to stop.. if i can give someone some insight on the matter why not? i dont mind talking about my past..
so you used to do heroin? do you miss it? how fun is it?
yeah, hah. do i miss it? yeah, but what i dont miss is waking up in col sweats with restless legs syndrome and vomiting and shitting and shaking/convulsing because the last time i did a couple of bags was 6 hours ago. not to mention the many, many times i fell out and woke up to my boyfriend and our best friend slapping me in the face.. yeah it’s fun, it’s fucking great.. but it’s also fucking horrible, too.. its a double edged sword, really.. I mean like for 14 months i was high every day because dan and I were selling it and making about 1 to 2 thousand dollars a day and having to drive down to Massachusetts 3 to 4 times a week.. I mean, it’s not a lot of money to some big time dealers but I had fun using and selling.. but it consumes your life.. I definitely miss the small stuff like preparing it and when the plunger was being pushed in and then taking off the belt and getting the warm rush and being warm for the next 6 hours, but I highly recommend staying away from it.. my entire town is just full of users.. Vermont is getting so bad… I walk down the street to uncapped rigs by parks and thats just fucked up, yo.